I don't think anybody should be rude to Molly-san after all the shit he's been through in general.
... but I guess. I mean... people are just gonna react a certain kind of way. That's how they are. Emotions are harder than just saying 'this is stupid so I don't want to feel it anymore'.
[He looks a little defeated like he was hoping Mineo would catch on from his vague hints. Oh well.]
Like I said. I needed to count things. If I looked up at the night sky, I wouldn't be able to focus on anything else until I counted all the stars. Every grain of rice. Every leaf on the ground. It had to be counted.
[ . . . . oh. he blinks at that - he's unfortunately not super familiar with mental health diagnoses, but seems to catch on with this much information at least]
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Sure, but you wouldn't see, say Mollymauk doing something like that, would you?
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I don't think anybody should be rude to Molly-san after all the shit he's been through in general.
... but I guess. I mean... people are just gonna react a certain kind of way. That's how they are. Emotions are harder than just saying 'this is stupid so I don't want to feel it anymore'.
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That's true. We don't have such precise control over our brains. It would be nice if we did, though....
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Do you not want to feel some things, Fukuda-san?
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[Dodging again, though... he will relent a little;]
Less now, with my hole.
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What did it take from you?
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[This sheds a new light on what he said about stars, probably.]
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Did you feel like - a compulsion before?
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My whole life was ruled by numbers. That's why I'm glad to have my hole. I can think clearly now.
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[he's not good at math either!
but
he has a sense that's not what fukuda's getting at]
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Like I said. I needed to count things. If I looked up at the night sky, I wouldn't be able to focus on anything else until I counted all the stars. Every grain of rice. Every leaf on the ground. It had to be counted.
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Ah... And then to get rid of that, you -
... and everything's clearer for you now?
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Aah. I can focus properly, on what I want. That's why I'm grateful.