[yeah he's a very sweet boy and he looks so much better without it]
Oh... [he does look a little irritable] Vlad asked for it - but then I found out that the asshole had the nerve to be demanding shit from me after killing Starphase-san? I want to try to make things up to people, but I have my limits...
So I still had it in my hand after I decked him - but then Takeru took it, and he won't give it back.
[negotiations were attempted and then they went poorly]
Vlad has done a lot more than just killing Steven, so don't feel bad about being mad at him. I'm just more surprised that you have an eye under there, I thought you had lost your eye.
... I'm still mad at him, and I can't say I like him all that much - I just don't know if there's many people I have a right to be mad at either. At least... well, for some reason.
[he is mad! but he just... he really doesn't know what ground he has to stand on.]
But ah - sorry, if that worried you! No, I wear an eyepatch out of admiration for one of my idols.
anyway he's going to falter at that before looking a little bit more serious, straightening his shoulders as he faces luca]
... Endorsi only told me last week - and I don't forgive her, for the record. I'm still angry at her. Our relationship is complicated, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to get over what she did to you. [and there is a defensive flare of anger there - protective over luca
but... guilty.]
... but she told me something that bugged me and it was that... if she knew that I cared about you as much as I did, then - maybe it could've been different.
[and it's still wrong, because she still would've killed someone else. but mineo has a tendency to take things on himself, finding ways to make them his fault.]
And I kept thinking that - maybe if I'd said something different? If I was more obvious about how much I care about you? Even if I wasn't directly involved and I didn't know, it's still...
[There is. Honestly a flare up of irritation and anger there? Like Mineo unknowingly stumbled upon a trigger for Luca's temper.
Luca stamps down that irritation though. He knows Mineo means well, even if he doesn't realize exactly what it is that he just said. It's fine, Luca can breathe and be fine.]
So you figured out she was targeting specific people based on who she liked and didn't like, right? And telling people who to murder based on that.
[He's not even 100% sure that's the actual truth, since he's going on what Mahito told him. And Mahito is a flea. But.]
I'm going to be honest: you finding out that she was doing that and deciding "maybe I should have told her I liked him so he didn't die" is the proper way to address that is disappointing to hear.
[there's a matching flare of anger - not directed at luca, but he shakes his head.]
No. I found that out today. She kept everything vague when she told me and - I still need to figure out what to do with that information. I'm not sure how much she's still keeping from me.
[everything is complicated and so many people lie and mineo is just trying to figure out how to make heads or tails of any of it.]
... but I know I failed you. In a lot of different ways, probably.
[He's still angry. He's probably going to be angry for a long, long time. But if he's learned anything here, it's that the universe will keep shitting on him without respite and sometimes he needs to just let it go.]
I'm not surprised she kept it vague, that sounds like her.
[He knows what else he needs to say, but he hates having to say it. He's rubbing at his forehead as he says it though.]
...I shouldn't blame you for that. No, I don't blame you. It's not your fault.
[He's still feeling disappointed, but it really isn't Mineo's fault, and holding onto that anger probably isn't healthy.]
I'd accept it if you did. And even if you don't, I know that I've fucked up here - in a lot of different places. This whole situation is messed up, and I -
Wishing that we didn't have to deal with it is already pretty gone, but I do want to do right by you, Luca-san. And I get it if that means that you just don't want to talk to me anymore, or anything like that.
I just want to do better, but I know it's also up to me to figure out what that means. It's just that if there's anything I can do for you.... I hope that you'll let me know.
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he's actually a cutie]
... yeah. I'll do what I can. [but he does still look apologetic]
I have a lot of people I want to talk to so... I'll do my best.
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I have faith in you.
But, ah, what happened to your eyepatch?
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Oh... [he does look a little irritable] Vlad asked for it - but then I found out that the asshole had the nerve to be demanding shit from me after killing Starphase-san? I want to try to make things up to people, but I have my limits...
So I still had it in my hand after I decked him - but then Takeru took it, and he won't give it back.
[negotiations were attempted and then they went poorly]
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... I'm still mad at him, and I can't say I like him all that much - I just don't know if there's many people I have a right to be mad at either. At least... well, for some reason.
[he is mad! but he just... he really doesn't know what ground he has to stand on.]
But ah - sorry, if that worried you! No, I wear an eyepatch out of admiration for one of my idols.
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[Luca, notorious for shoving his feelings deep down in his soul and ignoring them.]
...you purposefully blind yourself out of admiration.
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[mineo just has an absurdly good physical sense i have no idea how he can shoot a man with the eyepatch on but he does that too]
But... there's one more thing I wanted to say, Luca-san... it's been bugging me for a little bit.
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Go ahead and say it then, I'm listening.
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anyway he's going to falter at that before looking a little bit more serious, straightening his shoulders as he faces luca]
... Endorsi only told me last week - and I don't forgive her, for the record. I'm still angry at her. Our relationship is complicated, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to get over what she did to you. [and there is a defensive flare of anger there - protective over luca
but... guilty.]
... but she told me something that bugged me and it was that... if she knew that I cared about you as much as I did, then - maybe it could've been different.
[and it's still wrong, because she still would've killed someone else. but mineo has a tendency to take things on himself, finding ways to make them his fault.]
And I kept thinking that - maybe if I'd said something different? If I was more obvious about how much I care about you? Even if I wasn't directly involved and I didn't know, it's still...
So I wanted to say... I'm sorry.
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[There is. Honestly a flare up of irritation and anger there? Like Mineo unknowingly stumbled upon a trigger for Luca's temper.
Luca stamps down that irritation though. He knows Mineo means well, even if he doesn't realize exactly what it is that he just said. It's fine, Luca can breathe and be fine.]
So you figured out she was targeting specific people based on who she liked and didn't like, right? And telling people who to murder based on that.
[He's not even 100% sure that's the actual truth, since he's going on what Mahito told him. And Mahito is a flea. But.]
I'm going to be honest: you finding out that she was doing that and deciding "maybe I should have told her I liked him so he didn't die" is the proper way to address that is disappointing to hear.
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No. I found that out today. She kept everything vague when she told me and - I still need to figure out what to do with that information. I'm not sure how much she's still keeping from me.
[everything is complicated and so many people lie and mineo is just trying to figure out how to make heads or tails of any of it.]
... but I know I failed you. In a lot of different ways, probably.
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I'm not surprised she kept it vague, that sounds like her.
[He knows what else he needs to say, but he hates having to say it. He's rubbing at his forehead as he says it though.]
...I shouldn't blame you for that. No, I don't blame you. It's not your fault.
[He's still feeling disappointed, but it really isn't Mineo's fault, and holding onto that anger probably isn't healthy.]
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I'd accept it if you did. And even if you don't, I know that I've fucked up here - in a lot of different places. This whole situation is messed up, and I -
Wishing that we didn't have to deal with it is already pretty gone, but I do want to do right by you, Luca-san. And I get it if that means that you just don't want to talk to me anymore, or anything like that.
I just want to do better, but I know it's also up to me to figure out what that means. It's just that if there's anything I can do for you.... I hope that you'll let me know.
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[He's tempted to flick Mineo's forehead, but he holds off on it for now. It really is hard for him to stay mad when Mineo is around.]
You can do better by helping everyone get out of here, for starters.
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... thanks. [he has to say that much] For - not walking away. We don't have that much time but I'm really glad I get a little bit more with you.
[even if that feels selfish to say]
But - of course. That's the goal. Everyone's wishes, everyone out.