It is a word I would expect. Revenge is not kind. It is not merciful. It only leads to more suffering. Surely someone who embarks upon it deserves no forgiveness or kindness in return.
I think... revenge is difficult - but you only want it because you're the one who got hurt first. Because someone did something wrong to you and... even if I don't know if I can say that getting back at them is right...
... it's hard to move on. I know that too. I can't just say that your pain disgusts me. That's not right either.
[his expression closes off - just a little. he looks away and tries to explain, as distantly as he can]
... someone important to me died a few months back. The person who killed them... said it was for 'justice'.
[hence why it's essentially a trigger word for mineo]
... I don't know who that person is yet, and I... I'm not convinced that revenge is the choice I'd make. [but perhaps, a little more quietly:] I don't even know what choice I'd make.
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The "truth".... What do you mean? The reasons for the indulgences, the trial, all of it?
[he's just guessing, but then he pauses for a moment before nodding]
You're really admirable, Primrose-san. Makes me feel embarrassed that I can't even find my footing in comparison.
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[ But to that, she makes a quiet kind of noise. A dubious scoff, perhaps. ]
However, I am not someone to admire. You had your own determination in this time... if you hold onto it tenaciously, I believe you won't falter.
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Maybe I won't but -
You don't think you're admirable...? How come?
[he's not sure what there is about her that someone couldn't like]
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[ Simply that. ]
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... I won't press if you don't wanna talk about it.
But - it sounds like it's been hard. Or is it just what you're used to, so it doesn't feel that way...?
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So while it remains hard, this path, I'll continue to walk it until it finally ends.
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If that's okay to ask.
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[ With a rather crooked smile. ]
Which is why I am the furthest thing from admirable.
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he looks thoughtful at that and - suddenly seems like he's wrestling with it. struggling with it.
but.
at least he's not turning away.]
.... someone took something - or someone - important to you?
And you came all the way here to get back at them?
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I don't need a wish for revenge, not if I intend to accomplish it with my own power. What I truly wished for will have to remain a secret, I'm afraid.
Do I disgust you now, Mineo?
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'Disgust'?
No way.
Why's that the first word you reach for?
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[ She... says this all rather matter-of-factly. ]
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.... you're being hard on yourself.
[that's what he says softly.]
I think... revenge is difficult - but you only want it because you're the one who got hurt first. Because someone did something wrong to you and... even if I don't know if I can say that getting back at them is right...
... it's hard to move on. I know that too. I can't just say that your pain disgusts me. That's not right either.
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He speaks like someone else she knows... it's a little nostalgic at this point. ]
You needn't approve of it. But thank you for your kindness, Mineo.
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I don't know if it's kindness, Primrose-san. [he does admit that a little softly]
I mean - I want to be kind to you, that's true. It's just...
[ . . . ]
I think about revenge sometimes too. So I guess.... I understand a little, why you can still want it, even if you can admit it's not pretty.
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[ Well. Honestly, she finds that a little surprising. Mineo doesn't strike her as the vengeful type. ]
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[his expression closes off - just a little. he looks away and tries to explain, as distantly as he can]
... someone important to me died a few months back. The person who killed them... said it was for 'justice'.
[hence why it's essentially a trigger word for mineo]
... I don't know who that person is yet, and I... I'm not convinced that revenge is the choice I'd make. [but perhaps, a little more quietly:] I don't even know what choice I'd make.
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Still... [ It's her path. She will walk it, to the very end. It's what she had decided and it's what she lives for. ]
But I'm sorry you've had to experience a loss like that.
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Same to you. If your feelings are like mine - whatever or whoever they're for.
[whatever it was that she lost.]
I hope the choice you've made is enough to satisfy you, so you can move on afterward.