[probably too much, given that after vira told him that he didn't deserve to eat until he did something useful, it took a while to eat after they got trial wrong again
but it's fine
at the question, his smile is - both adoring and deeply in despair.]
.... you have anyone you look up to, Vira-san? Like - you think that they're the best person. Fuji-senpai was like that to me. Cool, caring, and always straightforward about his sense of how he wanted to help people.
He was like - my paragon of justice. I thought that if I could just make him proud, then I'd be doing a good job.
.... I don't know what that is right now. [and he seems bitter to admit it] Because... you're right. Fuji-senpai... was mortal.
He got judged for being evil. So supposedly that was already supposed to be justice - when he was killed, we were all supposed to be happy.
[and the idea of it makes his insides twist. his friend, his mentor, unmasked to be a monster and then vanquished like that's what leads to a happy ending]
I just... want to know what happened. Who killed him. And then I'll... have to decide what I want from there.
[he hasn't thought about it that far - ... no, maybe it's simpler to say that he hasn't let himself.]
[ so was he meant to be vanquished, and not just murdered? strange, though it did seem that mineo's peers cared much less about solving this than he did. ]
[ . . . . evil. he looks like he's still thinking about how he wants to answer that part before she asks the second and - he stalls entirely.
and then, quietly:]
.... I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about it.
But I... I don't know. I hate that person more than I've ever hated anybody.... No matter their reasons, I don't think that Fuji-senpai needed to go out like that - disgraced, abandoned, tortured.
[he scowls, brow furrowing]
.... maybe I will. But I - Wouldn't that just be imposing my own broken idea of justice...?
[ Mineo is softer than she is—still, of course she'd be affected if she saw the same thing. Maybe not for ideological reasons, but affected all the same.
Who wouldn't consider a dark path if they found someone they loved like that? ]
It could be.
Ultimately, you'll have to choose based on the strength of your character, and not what's just or not. [ ... ] For someone like you, I would make a decision that you can live with.
Yeah. I know. I don't think.... I get to decide much anymore based on some idea of 'justice' or what's 'good'. I think we all just have to make choices we can live with, based on our goals.
[so there's... at least some growth, from the young man who used to follow his idol around like a puppy]
[ she nods, because it sounds like he does have a grasp on this, at least. ultimately, it's up to his own capabilities to find the culprit, and his own heart to act judgment upon them.
though she does sigh a bit, straightening up. ]
While at times I find you hopeless and spastic, I don't dislike you, Enomoto. [ which doesn't sound tsun as much as an honest appraisal of her feelings. maybe a little guarded—but still, it's better than thinking of him as a pervert, probably. ] Listening to serious concerns is not a laborious task. We are presently allies—don't be surprised if I act like it from time to time.
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but it's fine
at the question, his smile is - both adoring and deeply in despair.]
.... you have anyone you look up to, Vira-san? Like - you think that they're the best person. Fuji-senpai was like that to me. Cool, caring, and always straightforward about his sense of how he wanted to help people.
He was like - my paragon of justice. I thought that if I could just make him proud, then I'd be doing a good job.
[ - and then he was gone.]
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...It's difficult, when people so wonderful are still just as mortal as you or I.
[ her voice is soft, her vision still filled with his memory of that dark room. ]
Is that what you're seeking? [ is that what he wished for...? ] Justice?
[ he hadn't seemed too pleased discussing such a thing at trial, though. ]
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.... I don't know what that is right now. [and he seems bitter to admit it] Because... you're right. Fuji-senpai... was mortal.
He got judged for being evil. So supposedly that was already supposed to be justice - when he was killed, we were all supposed to be happy.
[and the idea of it makes his insides twist. his friend, his mentor, unmasked to be a monster and then vanquished like that's what leads to a happy ending]
I just... want to know what happened. Who killed him. And then I'll... have to decide what I want from there.
[he hasn't thought about it that far - ... no, maybe it's simpler to say that he hasn't let himself.]
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Evil...?
[ so was he meant to be vanquished, and not just murdered? strange, though it did seem that mineo's peers cared much less about solving this than he did. ]
Do you think you'll kill them?
[ she asks without flinching. ]
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and then, quietly:]
.... I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about it.
But I... I don't know. I hate that person more than I've ever hated anybody.... No matter their reasons, I don't think that Fuji-senpai needed to go out like that - disgraced, abandoned, tortured.
[he scowls, brow furrowing]
.... maybe I will. But I - Wouldn't that just be imposing my own broken idea of justice...?
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Who wouldn't consider a dark path if they found someone they loved like that? ]
It could be.
Ultimately, you'll have to choose based on the strength of your character, and not what's just or not. [ ... ] For someone like you, I would make a decision that you can live with.
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Yeah. I know. I don't think.... I get to decide much anymore based on some idea of 'justice' or what's 'good'. I think we all just have to make choices we can live with, based on our goals.
[so there's... at least some growth, from the young man who used to follow his idol around like a puppy]
.... thanks, Vira-san. For listening.
[and for trying to help, from what he can tell]
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though she does sigh a bit, straightening up. ]
While at times I find you hopeless and spastic, I don't dislike you, Enomoto. [ which doesn't sound tsun as much as an honest appraisal of her feelings. maybe a little guarded—but still, it's better than thinking of him as a pervert, probably. ] Listening to serious concerns is not a laborious task. We are presently allies—don't be surprised if I act like it from time to time.