[Omi is in the kitchen all night. He has just so many bowls out. They're all filled with different batters and he's beating them manually, despite plenty of mixers.]
I used to run track and field - I was pretty good at it too, made it to Nationals and everything.
It's fine to work hard, and to be out of breath - but once your body starts rebelling on you, you gotta take it easier. Know your limits before you trip over your own feet.
I think whatever feeling you've got... is probably similar. You shouldn't let it eat you up, Omi-san.
Not really - I finished up high school, went to the academy, and just did work there instead.
[but it does mean he's pretty fast - and he thought a sports analogy might be easier to understand than anything else]
But nah - I do gotta worry. Guys like you are always trying to look out for everybody else, but I'm worried that if we look away too long then your own shit'll just start to eat you up inside.
Honestly he's almost... amused by this attempted call out?]
Keep being straightforward.
You know? You aren't the first person to say something like that to me. I know how it looks, but I know how to take care of myself. I've been doing it for years now.
I guess it's just - even if you know how to take care of yourself, it's not like you've been in a situation like this before, right? Just because you learn how to do something out of necessity doesn't mean that you have to.
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mineo does wander in there eventually
and he just pauses and - ]
... need some help, Omi-san, or is this a one man job on purpose?
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I just... [Everything happened so much and he needs his body to be doing something.]
You can take one if you want.
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and reaches for a bowl to copy omi's actions]
... this your way of coping?
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It... just feels a lot better than doing nothing.
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nods]
.... yeah.
[even if this doesn't make mineo feel much better either]
.... you all shouldn't be expected to have to deal with shit like that.
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I didn't think being here would lead to that.
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No one did.
You're all civilians - mostly. To be honest, I think some people are actually real criminals, too.
But I mostly mean - this is the worst form of jury duty.
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[Aggressively mixing this cake batter, before he starts lining a tin.]
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It's not nearly long enough. Investigations take a long time - days, at least. Not even touching trials themselves, which span longer than that.
[he looks down at the batter]
... I'm not saying that we shouldn't feel guilty or ashamed but - don't beat yourself up too much for being in a situation you never expected.
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... How much is too much?
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Does your heart feel like it's breaking? Like you can't breathe?
That's too much.
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There's the briefest pause of his hands before he resumes mixing.]
I'll keep it in mind.
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I used to run track and field - I was pretty good at it too, made it to Nationals and everything.
It's fine to work hard, and to be out of breath - but once your body starts rebelling on you, you gotta take it easier. Know your limits before you trip over your own feet.
I think whatever feeling you've got... is probably similar. You shouldn't let it eat you up, Omi-san.
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I'll be okay in the end. You don't need to worry about me too much, alright?
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[but it does mean he's pretty fast - and he thought a sports analogy might be easier to understand than anything else]
But nah - I do gotta worry. Guys like you are always trying to look out for everybody else, but I'm worried that if we look away too long then your own shit'll just start to eat you up inside.
[a beat]
Sorry, if that's too straightforward.
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Honestly he's almost... amused by this attempted call out?]
Keep being straightforward.
You know? You aren't the first person to say something like that to me. I know how it looks, but I know how to take care of myself. I've been doing it for years now.
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But if I'm not the first...
I guess it's just - even if you know how to take care of yourself, it's not like you've been in a situation like this before, right? Just because you learn how to do something out of necessity doesn't mean that you have to.
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No. Nothing quite like this.
[Judge, jury, detective? It's a lot for him.]
I don't mind taking care of myself.
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he's just gonna reach out then and pat omi's shoulder]
And I'm tellin' you -
You don't have to. Not so long as I'm around. Share the load a little, okay? It'll at least be a little lighter.
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... Alright. I'll come to you when it feels like to much. How is that?
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Starting right now. Every time you feel just like this, we'll hang out and at least share the burden.
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[but he'll just offer a grin and tap his knuckles on omi's shoulder once]
But let's get something straight, Omi-san. The problems you're holding onto are the burden I want to share. Not you. You're fine, however you are.
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I got it. Don't worry.
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